Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Happy 7th Ella!

May 13th came and went, but not unnoticed! Ella turned 7 years old. I had a fun cake for her on her actual birthday -thanks to my friend Karen for making another delicious number for us!
Ella had an awesome birthday party the next day. We did a lil' bit of a Hannah Montana motif, mixed with an "Ella's Garden" bit since she got some plants for her birthday. ...At her request. :)
Dear Ella-

You are such an incredible young lady. You have developed your reading skills like mad and love it. You sparkle with any opportunity to learn. You are crazy creative and make absolutely adorable creations. You like to draw pictures and hide them for me! :) I cherish them. You earned a special math award this year. You are brilliant with speaking and understand & pick up so much. Every day I dropped you off at school you would literally run inside!

You have friends who adore you. Your sisters want to be just like you. You are a natural leader, and feel deeply with your heart. Ella, it is an absolute honor to be your mother. I thank God for you every day of my life, and will never ever understand what I did to deserve you.

I hope you had a good birthday, sweetie.


Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Mia's Graduation

This little Bell of the ball has graduated her 1st year of Preschool! Her star says "Sooo Cute" because she says it all the time about most things... You should shop with her!
Here's Ella and me chillin' at the show!
Mia must have had something important to say. It usually comes in a stance like this, with a full-toothed smile too. I'm a lucky mom. :)
Congrats, my middle angel. You're growing up too fast!

Sunday, June 19, 2011


I have been living moment to moment in a universe of absolute uncertainty. The only thing I know is that I love my children and love God. ...Most everything else is up for grabs. There are a few arms of extenuating "I believes", but have been proven wrong on too many.

The trust I thought I'd had in so many different aspects is really shaken. There have been "regrettable incidents" to straight-up betrayals. I have been faced with truths unbearable to believe, or alternatively too unbearable to internalize (therapy has been helping)...

I have a sincere appreciation for those who have expressed concern, and you'll please forgive me for keeping most of you at an arm's length. It's the darkest hour of my life, and I don't know how to sugar-coat it.