Tuesday, November 4, 2008

This Wall

Over the last few days, I have had a redirected focus. I guess you could say that I was heading down a chaotic path of uncertainty -holding together what I could, but planning on a future of being a single mother. This has changed. The path is still unknown, however, it's completely different. It's reserved, terrified, yet, undeniably the road I need to travel. I love Lance. He's my heart and soul. He's absolutely irreplaceable -as the father of my children, as the love of my life. He's been seeing the same, through the hurt that he's experienced as well. There is no guarantee that this road won't end in further heartache. There is only the double-edged sword of sweet/cruel hope that we can put these broken pieces back together and make our family whole.

Lance, I know you have a long way to go. I know you're taking steps to fix some of what has gone wrong. I know you have had a change of heart and recognize the irreplaceable value of having me to love. Words are one thing, actions, quite another. So far, you are beginning to break down this wall.


Joni said...

You are an amazing woman Becca!